Ok well I know that this is "A Look Into The Hatfield House" but I begin my blog journey here in Johnson City Tennessee in the Golden Room Suite. Which is a wonderful hotel room. Its late and as usual I can't sleep, but I guess you would like to know why I'm here. Well my husband Robert is going to see if he can have Lasik Eye Surgery. Its a break from everyday life for a night.
But boy do I miss my baby girl Abigail. She is the light of my life, my world, a beautiful gift from God! I know at times I'm ready to lay down and scream because she is into everything! But she is the reason that God put me on this beautiful Earth. Robert and I tried only once and God gave us a gift.
A gift that I sould not ever get angry with but yet I do. Why is it that the blessings in life we never look at them the way we should? So I guess I'm saying is why is it that I feel like I'm the only Mother that feels like this? Why do I feel like I am all alone in this? When I get like this I feel like the worst person that ever lived. I feel bad for getting mad at Abigail, getting angry because she made a mess, or wants me to read to her when I'm busy? Why don't I look at it and smile at the mess she made, or stop and read because there will be a day when she doesn't want Mommy anymore. There will be a day that shes gone off to college or married.
I wish I knew the anwsers and could fix the way that I feel. So is there anyone else out there that feels like this? Or am I really all alone? I really could use some advise, and prayers.
God bless all who reads this. Until next time I will be wondering whats going on in my mind so God help me!
